Today I took my 3 little ones for a bike ride around my neighborhood. I was so looking forward to that kid feeling again. It was nice to feel the warmth of the sun, and hearing my little ones scream weee!! But the wind…ahhhh I used to love that spring wind. Well, needless to say, it did me in for the rest of the night. Just when I thought that little monster was sleeping! It’s okay, my kids loved the ride…that’s all that matters.
It’s hard to hide behind pain sometimes. Anyone out there feel this way too?
I decided to hang the washing out today as it was nice and breezy. I had to keep turning my face away from the wind in a vain attempt to stop it hitting the left side of my face. It zapped a few times but its worth it to have fresh smelling bedclothes!!
Its very hard to hide behind pain. Somedays are better are others.
Sometimes I feel rotten because I get irritated with the children - when really it is irritation with the TN - so yes, I too feel it is hard to hide behind pain.
Unfortunately practice seems to be helping me reduce my irritation with them (and I imagine you can understand why that is unfortunate!) and helping me smile through it (with clenched teeth!!!lol).
I intend to ride on…the sound of the children will carry us through
I’m with Matthew in that I believe it’s important to live and not just exist with TN, but sometimes that comes at a cost. It’s something that only we understand; the constant fear of pain returning and the knowledge that TN will undermine any complacency we may have. Your kids will remember the great ride and you might remember how you felt with the sun on your face. It made me smile too.