I am so exhausted and have been crying for hours now. It took my doctor LEAVING the clinical for a fellow doctor to diagnose me with one visit: permanent anesthesia dolorosa; except get this- he said it was caused by my stroke! ANYTHING, I mean will they really do ANYTHING to avoid just admitting that they messed up? My stroke wasn't even on my t nerve- it was on the cerebellular peduncle. he said "well strokes can cause post stroke syndrome and those syndromes can just decide where to establish pain and yours put yours in your mouth!"
To say the least I freaked and started crying. He said there was another neurosurgeon at the clinic who did implants and that he was there today. He asked if I wanted to see him. I said yes. I seen Dr. M and Dr. M said I had many options: all were ablative (damaging and could further mess up my T nerve) but that the motor cortex implant in my SPINE wasn't. I was hoping for the pens for the face, but he said no he doesn't do that and that I could have the one for my spine. I said I needed a week to think. He gave me a phamplet and in that it gives you a website to connect and hook up with other patients who have the same type of device. My to be hubby set me up with it while I went shopping, but we have to wait to talk to someone. Anyways, this other neuro said "ah, no your pain was caused by injury to your T nerve- having a stroke just didnt help the cause any!" What FUMED me and made me really mad was that my X neurosurgeon's nurse was in there ( the one that told me the anesthiologist was in there and said NO you do NOT have AD and just generally made me feel like an idiot). She stood there with her arms crossed and when the new neuro said I had AD for sure, she went "HMPF" like an "oh how interesting type of hmpf!" When I started crying, the big B HUGGED ME! I have never wanted to punch someone so bad in my entire life and her face was just EW it was just RIGHT THERE.
I am a mess. Im just a mess. NO wonder massive amounts of drugs never helped me. Guys, I knew I had AD. I was fine for three months then it hit and just never left. I KNEW IT.
Can I just say something here because I am going to. Dont dare, if you get messed up by an MVD, wait "two years" to see if your pain gets better. Im a friggen paralegal. Do you know WHY they tell you to wait two years? Because then your statute of limitations runs out and you cant sue, thats why. Newsflash to them- I lied. I said my original surgery was in September of 2010. They must not check records really well. It wasn't. It was last year and OH YES YES AND MORE YES I am going after them. Yes, you sign informed consents that say you can have a stroke, but you do NOT sign informed consents that say 1.) You, doctor, you can CAUSE the stroke ( mine was in the operative field, it was CAUSED, it did not happen 2.) That you can fly to california and leave me in the care of residents 3.) that you can miss the diagnosis of a stroke because you never seen me after the MVD and left me in the care of those residents 4.) That you can lie to me over and over again 5.) that you can cause me AD 5.) That you can cause me an injuries so severe that I am going on my second surgery just from being messed up in the first place.
Im sorry- if you get messed up or you did, you fight like HELL to get a diagnose BEFORE that two year mark hits. Guys, the docs do that for a reason, dont let them. I already have an attorney on the line. He said allllll he needed was for them to diagnose me with a caused condition that I did not have pre surgery. He said if it comes up with AD, then he takes the case under several reasons: lack of informed consent (the doc invalidated it) and gross negligence and malpractice.
Im ANGRY. ALL HE HAD TO DO was say Im so sorry- something went wrong; perhaps this and x.y. and z could maybe help you. But no, he got IN MY FACE and said your diagnosis is called PAIN JODIE, ITS CALLED PAIN. Yeah, well its called lawsuit. Just gotta get the implant before I file ( filing a lawsuit severes the relationship with the clinic and then I can never, ever go back, you cant go back to someone you sue, even if you dont win). SOOO give me the implant, cause I already have a doc waiting who will take care of it at another hospital. I am soooo PEED OFF. Red can I swear?