NEED HELP im so close to the egde right now and in sooo much pain

Im in so much pain that I cant talk sleep eat or smile its all day eveyday and I cant seem to get a break. My doctor has double my dose but it hasnt seemed to be working. I cant tell anyone else that a few times im been so close to take a load to pain killers just to make the pain stop. I just want the pain to stop and be able to sleep again :'(

So sorry and so understand. It can feel so helpless, but we have to keep on. Please post, we are here for you. Have you tried any topicals at all? If it gets to bad go to E/R, we have to be our own advocates which is so hard when the pain is so bad, but you deserve help and if the increased meds are not working, something else needs to be tried. I had an awful day yesterday, today better, anxiety part of it, cuz even on good days you worry, but do try and enjoy the good ones and you deserve good ones. I wish I had magical advice, all I can tell you is how much we all care here and while it is so tough, try and hang in there. Keep calling your Dr and continue on be it with that Dr or another so you can get help and some relief. Also feel free to email me, I can also give you my number if you want to text, know can't talk, know that feeling, but here for you. Sending you a gentle hug, let us know....