I'm done with medication

I've decided that I just can't take medication anymore. I've weaned myself off most everything except for a small dosage of oxcarbazapine and I hope to be done with that soon.

My pain has already come back of course but I can't be a zombie anymore. As I've mentioned in earlier posts, I lost my job earlier this year because of brain fog and until the haze clears I don't believe it's possible for me to go back to work. Yes, it's really hard to work around the pain but right now I simply don't know what else to do.

I've never been fired before. I'm 57 years old and losing my job along with the uncertainty of what the TN has in store for me has me pretty much non-functional. I can't really tell if the medication has made me stupid of if I've just gotten stupid with age and have blamed it on the meds. Consequently, until the meds are completely out of my system I don't even know what my baseline is anymore. So, maybe TN has nothing to do with any of this

I have an appointment with my regular neurologist tomorrow and with a neurosurgeon the day after Christmas. I hope that between the doctors they will be able to figure out something but maybe not.

Sorry for sounding like such a bummer but I'm really discouraged.

I hope all of you have a good holiday.

Oh you are fine I feel the same way. I also lost my job but mine was due to missing from the pain. The meds make you feel awful so I understand why you would do this. My pain is still bad on meds and a spinal cord stim so I just can’t go without. I do feel like why do I take these when I hurt all the time anyway. I have taken myself off all drugs and realized I need them. I only take gabapentin and Percocet. I was on methadone which helped but scared me so I took myself off of it (which I would never recommend) I had withdraw it was awful.

Hang in there and your not alone

I don't have anything to add to this discussion but I just wanted to say that whatever you have decided to do I so sincerely hope it works out well for both of you. Merry Christmas.

Thank you Stephanie and Catwoman.