Hello all,
I was on a private group and mentioned that I could not reduce meds because a couple of months back I had contemplated suicide. I would never do it but you all know how bad the pain can get. Well, there was a glitch in the system and some of my regular friends on facebook seen this. One being the principal of my kids school and thank god a friend. I have since removed myself from the group but don't know where to turn and what is safe anymore. Thanks for listening
Wow I know how you feel! At times I've said that " I just want to die!" I wouldn't commit suicide. I know the Lord allows things in our lives to use us for others and to help us grow closer to him spiritually. The pain is horrific and the medication is another challenge. Yes we do have to be careful on the internet, but what's a blessing here is we're all facing the same challenge. I will be praying for you.
Deanna
Sorry that happened. Sometimes too much honesty comes out when you are hurting, because im sure everyones thought about killing themselves in passing conscious thought, but actually wanting too is a whole different story. It is a very touchy subject though and if you feel like you are at risk to yourself please let someone know, but if you are just venting I believe we are very in tune with our decision process and this is a venting and helping website. Dont be put off with sharing ! I feel this website is fairly safe. If the thoughts get crazy we are here for you!
I really appreciate all of your comments. Thank you.. Yes, I really wanted to end the pain however would not have commited suicide. I have 2 boys and a great husband. Right now, I have lowered my meds because I was tired of feeling slow and confused. I am feeling better but hopefully it will not bite me in the butt. lol.. Anxious to get to the know the group..
I think we share a brain & need to be friends! I also feel the way you do, and would hate to have my entire world know about that. I'll pray for you Tina. I've basically been crying all day, anxiety, depression & TN will do that to a person. Remember when you are sad, you can always PM me! Add me on Facebook too! Robbie Sterler Korthals Take care hun!