Anyone facing this; Feel like Eeyore one day and Roger Rabbit next!?, I am menopausal as well as ptsd but I am not bipolar…I’m on Klonopin now as the doctors have no clues what to do with me, and after 11yrs I now have to chose a new doc as medicaid has been cut here in Montana~ add on more pls.
I have Bipolar and P.T.S.D. I mostly have pain every day. Once in a awhile. I don’t have pain. I had radio surgery done. And I am not sure if it worked. The Dr. has no clue what to do with me. I am just a mess.
I most certainly feel that way Rene, I think many of us do. Even on the days when I am in a remission I am constantly sitting here bracing and waiting for that pain to return. I know that sounds stupid but I am just so scared of that pain occurring over and over again that the mere thought of the pain brings tears to my eyes even now. And when that pain is occurring there are many days when I don’t even want to get up, I would rather just sleep through it. Sorry to sound so down but this is not a pleasant thing to deal with in any circumstance. Good luck in finding a new Doctor and please keep up posted. Much love dear!
Nice to meet like people…sorry for your sufferings as well pray for us all. So crazy not messed up enough to claim any help but just messed up enough not to be fully functional without alot of support & meds…drag~
Cat,I was pretty much a mess for the last two weeks as I would cry every morning because of the pain and thinking of my future. I went to the doctor and he changed my anti-depressant. I started taking it yesterday and so far so good. I am just glad that I haven’t cried for two days straight now. I’m on a roll. Min
One step in the right direction, RockinRene, is that you are expressing how you feel and not holding it in. I’m so glad you came on here to reach out instead of bottling it up. When it’s dark, it can get really dark. Sometimes it can just get really flippin bad. It’s one day at a time. Just share here and ‘just be’. Just be yourself. You’re not alone. I know one thing I like to do when I get really down, (and I mean really down), is I walk out my back door and just holler and scream and say what I want to say and get it out. I live in the country of course so probably all I do is scare the hide off of some squirrels but that has helped me. And feel free to laugh at that too, I know it sounds funny. But it helps. I promise! And if you don’t live in the country, try it when no one’s in the house or scream into a pillow. Just getting it out helped me.
Best Regards,
RH