Sometimes visiting a doctor is like riding a Merry-Go-Round...There are some ups and downs, but in the end I just kind of circle back around to original ideas. I have been switched from Keppra 500mg twice daily to Keppra 750mg extended release, though due to its strength I had to wait for authorization and now for it to be ordered to the pharmacy. I'm going on a week without the new medication and my surgeon wanted me to be on it by this past Monday. Yeah, that's working out real well. Anyway, I will also be visiting with a Pain Management surgeon in December to attempt a V1 nerve block directly to my right temple. If these two 'ideas' end up not working, then I will be going in for my 2nd MVD surgery in June of '13 with two neurosurgeons instead of just the one. I really don't care what they do - I just want to be free of this hell.
I attempted to work out recently after avoiding due to severe pain to the V1 nerve when my heart rate rises, yet just as I predicted, mid-way through it felt like someone shot me in the head. That was Monday and today is Thursday and it still feels like a bullet is there or someone is scraping the nerve with a razor. It's horrible and unfair, even to the kids I teach because I feel limited and the pain puts me in a bad mood that I can't seem to crawl out of.
I'm tired of it all. I'm near my edge and I just want to give up. Maybe this isn't a battle I can't win...