BAD Pain Day

Hi everyone, hope you don't mind my venting. This is pretty much my only outlet, no one outside my very immediate family even knows about my ATN. I know I should maybe be more open, but I am an intensely private person. I would much rather discuss my problems AFTER I have solved them! So I have painted myself into a bit of a corner.

My husband is wonderful, but this isn't his first rodeo with me and a health issue. I have had one problem and another since becoming pregnant with our youngest daughter nearly five years ago. I'm beginning to think he might be wondering if his wife is defective. I make a point of only telling him the good news... I've got a concrete dx, a referral to a Neuro who is supposedly the God of TN of the Pacific Northwest (lol), I am tolerating the first med I have tried very well, cutting down on the Percocet, everything should be on track for a quick recovery. But I am learning that is not the nature of ATN.

I have such hope for the Tegretol! I could tell after a couple of days on my low dose the side effects were leveling off. The unfortunate thing is so did the pain relief. I have upped my dose (with my NP's okay) this morning but ohhhh! It might be that after experiencing a few small periods of without pain, the stress of it returning is adding to its intensity, or making me more aware of it, I don't know... maddening! The psychological aspect of this - chasing my own tail trying to work it out in my mind, stay positive, not become wrapped up in every little sensation, keep my mind otherwise occupied, circular thinking - is just adding to my bad day. If I could just get on top of this pain!!

Thanks for just being here, you are all such a comfort. I hope everyone is as pain-free and easy as possible! NGT

I am so sorry you are having a tough day.

I know what you mean about getting a defective wife.

In the last years I have had a few medical problems that required hospitalization. I actually told him that he should leave me, and then he asked me if I would leave him if he was ill. Of course not I said. Then he asked me what made him a worst person then I am.

Also keep in mind that I had a terrible day yesterday. For the first time ever I had to call my husband at work to have him come home and take me to the ER. They pumped me full of Diauladid (sp?) an sent me home. Today I am feeling much better, for the first time in two weeks. Just remember that tomorrow might be better, and if not tomorrow, the day after or the day after that!

Feel better and vent at will

Stephanie