I am really discouraged. I have survived through all of the nasty weather we've had. I have tried to keep myself together through the variety of obstacles we've bee hit with. So it would seem that maybe just maybe when things are starting to come together, I might enjoy them, but no not gonna happen. I am in pain and trying to just hold on. Not sure how this day is going to play out, I already feel like I have let so many people down including myself. My dh is a good man, but when I am down he transfers so much responsibility to my dd15 who does great, but she is 15. He is doing all he can to run the ranch, be dad, husband, etc. and we've got major issues at the ranch. I am trying to mess with my meds to give myself the best I can, but since I am fighting with Blue Shield I am almost out and there isn't much wiggle room. My daughter just brought me a warm compress and a glass of peppermint tea. She is going to do what I was suppose to be doing with her today, doing a dry run for prom hair do's. She is also going to play hair salon with dd9 too and all I can do is try and focus here on the stupid computer. What a waste of my life in bed and on the computer. Is that all I have become? I pretty much give up today. There isn't any more I can do for any one and they know it. Our family dog of 12.5 yrs. was hit yesterday and we buried her. she was a good dog, helped raise our kiddos, kept them safe and protected, was so patient and kind as they learned to crawl & walk, allowed them to lay all over her, put her on a leash and "walk" her even though she is a ranch dog and never is leashed. She protected out family more than once from people intending to do harm. Doesn't seem the same without her. She is the only one I would let in he house in the winter when it was cold and the thunder and lightening where bad. She knew she had to suffer through a bath first but then was content to hang by the fire place, like she was always allowed to be there. She always understood when I wasn't feeling the best and would come nuzzle up to me sitting in the rocking chair on the porch. Oh my goodness, didn't mean to vent so much. Thanks for listening if you've read this far. blessings~~
Awwwww, Shepherdgirl, I am so sorry for the loss of your dog yesterday. Your situation sounds almost impossible today, I am so sorry for that too. Your family sounds strong. But I get the helpless feeling when you want to do things with them and pull your weight. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you all.
Wishing you peace and some pain free hours in the days and weeks to come when spring finally makes its real debut.
Bellalarke
Sorry for the loss of your dog, their passing is just like a member of the family . They are so important in our lives when I'm down I know my dog is the one who will lie with me and give comfort.
Your family sound very strong and supportive. I hope you have a better day tomorrow . Sending you gentle hugs bekind to yourself.
I am so sorry for your tough times, and now the loss of your loved 4 footed family member.
I am sure you are at loss without your buddy.....our pets mean the world to us.
She had a good home, many pets aren't as fortunate...so think of all the love she got and felt from your home.
In honor of her today:
The Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author Unknown
Sounds like you have been through a rough spell and so sad to hear about your beloved pet. Just compounds our losses when we are still adapting to loss of health as we knew it before TN. Other changes also take time to adjust to and yours is so fresh and raw. Our pets really are a safety net of comfort especially when we're not well, they are so intuitive. She will always hold a special place in your heart. I hope you will turn a corner soon and find a little ray of sunshine. Sounds like you have a dear little family, too...hang on. Cherish the little things, for we may later realize they were the big things.
I am so sorry, hold on tight to those precious memories of your dog. Hold on tight to the faith that there is a cure out there, our PAIN WILL Go AWAY... someday. Please know that you are not alone.
Hugs to you~
It's okay that today - all you were able to do is miss your good friend....
I'm sitting here bawling - because I was gonna post a link to rainbow bridge - but didn't want to read it.... I love animals more than people -- I have like 40 waiting for me on the other side LOL
It's been a few years since a loss for me - but have 5 furry kids in the house now...and someday the unthinkable happens, and I just HAVE to hope that I see them again......unconditional love in it's purest form. It's such a gift.
Please take it easy on yourself for the next few days.... I so hope you can find some comfort some how in the coming days.....
Thanks everyone for the kind and supportive words. Coming home after, and she didn't great me in the driveway was hard, very hard. Other stresses in life keep adding up. Praying that no more will be added. My face has been so-so due to weather being unsure of what it's going to do!! I keep putting one foot in front of the other. blessings~~
Hi Sheperdgirl,
Sorry for the loss of your pooch, I get this am a dog lover and owner. My dog knows when I am having a bad day. If I cry from pain he tries to lick my tears. The unconditional love is amazing animals give to us. I also have a daughter who has been taking care of me since 1996. She was a sophmore in high school. She went away to college, so hubby had no choice but to dig his heels in. In between 8 back surgeries had my Mom who lived with me at 6 momths at a time to help. She is now deceased, miss ner everyday. Nothing like love of a Mom. She met my rat terrier Rocco 7 years ago was happy for me to have a dog, hes only 13lbs. Have pic of him on line. He allowed me to forget in my darkest hours. A part of the family period. So I am here with you its a terrible loss and vent away thats why we are here. We all lean on each other for support. Take care!
My Best
Joannexo