I went MIA in May of this year from the site. Yes I am alive. Yes, I am doing well. I had to take myself out of the forum because I was having a really hard time facing that TN was my reality and life. I had to put so much on hold, lost my job, lost any income, lost my home - gone, gone, gone -- all because I could not be healthy enough to support myself.
Fast forward to June...... I had no pain or flares for over 2 months and decided I was going to taper off the medication. I needed to do this in order to sit for the bar exam in this state. The gabapentin made me foggy and I knew that I would not be able to concentrate for the exam, nor would I be competent enough to practice. After consulting with my specialist, he said "Let's give it a try."
The good news is that it seems my TN is in remission. I have been medication and pain free for approximately 6 months now, was able to sit for the bar, passed, and life is looking up. I am grateful for every pain free day that I have at this point. But there is a part of me that sits in fear waiting. Waiting for it to come back. I dread it. Sometimes I have small zaps. And I freeze. I wonder at that point if they really happened or if they are more phantom pains.
So I am here, checking in, letting every one know I am here -- doing well, and I think of you all often.