RE: Update

So, I went to my PCP and my dentist today b/c the pain came back with a vengeance but I have one tooth that could have been the culprit. They both acknowledged progression in the disease and offered encouragement. It was so strange...there was a part of me that was relieved it was not a tooth (expensive, invasive, etc.) but the other part of me felt dread. This has been a far different pattern for me with the pain starting and stopping and then beginning again abruptly. I don't have much to add but thought I would share. I was so taken aback by my mixed reaction. Surely I am not the only one who has reacted that way, right?

Yes, most of us know it's a sad thing to remember it is progressive -- even when on best meds, it is still there - we just don't feel it. Remission may come and go -- and I could not deal with that part and placed my bets on an MVD. If I need to I would do it again, because the longer the wait, the more damage and pain. It's such a roller coaster ride to just go get my teeth cleaned..... should I medicate with a pain pill first? Will it hurt? Will it be fine like it was 48 years before all this crap happened to me?

I am personally working on watching Oprah and her forgiveness shows -- I have to forgive that oral surgeon that did this to me - I had several whiplashes before, but I know he was the last straw on the camels back -- I have to forgive him because it's good medicine for me -- but right now I'm choking on that medicine - because he did this to somebody else and made her look like a crazy lady in court --- that makes me feel even worse about him because he is a millionaire -- ohhhhh

meant to come here and give you company -- sorry to ramble -- Lots of mixed reactions around TN, pain, joblessness, new found friends here and at support group, compassionate professionals, side effects...... makes one dizzy thinking about all the good and bad and scary!

Keep posting and venting!