I am mostly an upbeat person. I always look for the good in things, people and life. Even when things are crappy, I will try to see something good. I just don’t like being pissed off all the time. I am one of those who really looks for the good things. Or maybe I am just so “out there” I would rather not see the bad things. Either way, I can’t stand to admit defeat. I won’t give up. I will not just curl up and say “I give up, you win TN.” So I stand completely still gripping my hands together and smile. I know I look like an idiot, but I don’t care. Even in the grocery store, with people looking at me like I am about to deliver a pony right there on isle 3. I have gotten to the point that when this happens, I will not hide. I am going to ride it out. And it is coming on again. Remission is over folks. Just like the low gas prices. Have you noticed them going back up yet?? Anyway, just thought I would vent a little. So if you see someone standing very still somewhere, like maybe they are going to strangle Dracula, that might be me. 
Shellie,
Your not alone at all, I stand with ya… What else can we do when it gets so bad… Hang in there and just remember that we are all here for you …
Carol
Shellie,
this was incredibly touching (and also funny too). Thanks for sharing. You’re an inspiration.
scott
What a memorable post…