I didn't sleep at all last night and tonight is looking like the same. I don't think I have realized how hard hit I have been with the PTSD until last night. I am reliving all the jury trial issues I have talked about in my head. It all began a year ago, with the verdict that changed my life even more than I ever thought coming in on July 2. I have been ok with pain the last few days. The A's vs Giants was an interesting event, but I made it through as i had doubled up on some of my meds. So has the wind and cold made it feel like winter, I survived due to a lot of pregame planning. I just get really down and try and keep going for everyone else, but I feel like I am a nothing, my pain level shouldn't be. Can I close my eyes and forget the world and my life just for a bit? Can I ever go back to not worrying about the meds, drs., pain, bogus words and accusations. I am so tired of it all. Ok so I think a warm shower is in order, just make sure it doesn't touch my face.......thanks for listening :-) <3
I can tell you that I have the diagnostic book for work ---- I haven't looked at it in reference to myself --- but even now it is gone --- it is not a distant memory --- one little twinge makes me think - ohhhh time for brain surgery again
an occaisional medium twinge = makes me think I'll be back on more drugs and have to quit another job
I was lucky that this only took 1.5 years out of my life -- non functioning - just now seeing the light --- but one little bite into a tough steak someday, or whiplash in a car wreck --- and it could all start again - HELL
I try realllly hard to stop looking in the rear view mirror - to look out the windsheild and find my old optimistic / resiliant self ---
I believe in remission or not --- successful MVD or not --- there are no 30 - 40 year studies --- it's like a cold sore - could always come back --- but not spending the last half of my life waiting for it -- I'm jumpin back in the pool - breeze and all!
I will ALWAYS have lidocaine nearby --- until I'm in a nursing home LOL --- so yes --- can cause you to feel PTSD --- if you think it might be affecting 1 or more of your main areas of life --- get a counselor - one who knows about chronic illness or pain management --
I did a write up about grief and loss with TN --- you can search it up above
keep posting!
Kimberly
I've talked with a number of face pain patients who have a sense of suffering from something like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Something which I have suggested to others is that Cognitive Behavioral Therapy for a few weeks might offer you some tools for managing your own thoughts and habitual patterns of expectation, and de-stressing yourself. The main idea is to get off the toxic merry-go-round and take back your personal power. Unlike psychotherapy, CBT is directed to helping you learn to manage your own mental state. It's normally administered by a psychologist and typically lasts up to 16 weeks. During that time, you can decide whether you might do better with some form of longer term supportive therapy.
Go in Peace and Power
Red
<3 Thank you very much <3
Hey there, Shepherd Girl, thinking of you and hoping this is a feel-good day for you. I don't know your background but it sounds like you've had a lot of stress. I can relate. Take good care of yourself...you need and deserve it.
~ Vicki
Today was ok until my dd19 wanted to take a walk and the wind came up really hard, and I couldn't go. Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. Often it is tough to see the trees through the forest. Yes, the stress is so high I can't even begin to explain. That adds to the TN I am sure. I hope your day was a good one also. blessings~~
TN is a really irritating condition! PTSD is no doubt a byproduct of suffering; given time, with today’s medical, psychological and social communication advances, TN doesn’t have to be termed a suicide disease. Buy a clear bubble umbrella for walks in the wind. I use one and it works very well! I hold it against the wind as protection. I can see where I’m going. I also suggest you begin investing in pretty lightweight woven scarves if your face can stand having anything against it. Sometimes I just hold a scarf away from my face and use it to block wind or to hold in heat. Hope these tips help you. The condition may not go away, but with acceptance comes peace and eventually your body will figure out a way to calm down, allowing you to figure out how to adjust your lifestyle to accomodate the changes forced on you by TN.
shepherdgirl said:
Today was ok until my dd19 wanted to take a walk and the wind came up really hard, and I couldn’t go. Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. Often it is tough to see the trees through the forest. Yes, the stress is so high I can’t even begin to explain. That adds to the TN I am sure. I hope your day was a good one also. blessings~~