Today I woke up and realized something. This past year of seeing various specialists has not improved my pain. In fact, some of their interventions made the pain worse or caused unbearable side effects. I'm getting diminishing or negative returns for my investment. It's time to pull out and call it quits.
When I made this decision, I felt a sense of elation. No more doctors, no more painful tests, and no more waiting rooms! Sure, I still have pain, but I have meds that mostly diminishes it. I've removed the stress of trying to find a cure. It's not giving up - it's accepting the reality that's my life. :)