I hope you stick around Rebecca! We are ALL in the same boat!
Please don’t isolate yourself, I completely understand that feeling of ineptness!
I get frustrated often, I’ve been trying to laugh at myself more…let’s laugh together!
Apparently I repeat things a lot?! Any of you experience this?
Oh and by the way, I still can’t remember all my funny word recall stories…maybe tomorrow!
Rebecca said:
i am having issues with articulating but here goes ... i once had a high command of vocabulary ... now, i feel inept so i isolate myself, on line and in person ... i have a hard time even remembering information to share on here ... dates, when and why i had what procedures done ... i even forget to pay my bills at times ... in essence, i gave up replying/commenting on here ...
OK, i just had to sign in to reply to this discussion and i dont know why BUT, i forgot my password and had to reset it ... i dont recall having to sign in before in order to reply ... maybe that is one of the other things i forgot ??
Guys, you are all being too hard on yourselves. why not pat yourselves on your collective backs instead?? All of us are managing a monster illness, brain crippling meds and our lives! Thats a ton of pressure. Stop being hard on yourselves, be as kind to YOU as we wish others would be and congratulate yourselves on being wonderful, managing and eccentric! No one ever remembers a bore!
Rebecca, I know it's hard but keep coming back to see us, there is no reason to isolate yourself from us who understand you. I have been a member since June 2010 and have had to sign in to comment since then, I cannot comment on prior to that.
I used to have a great memory,now forget it.I cant even write checks anymore without messing them up.I just hope my husband checked them before he mailed them out.I said to my husband hes going to have to take over our finances,because my memory is going,and hes says,your memory is still better then mine.LOLI know if he takes over with the bills,they wont get paid.
I agree completely - I used to be pretty good with words, but they frequently desert me now! I'm sure my husband thinks I'm crazy half the time! Memory recall is awful too - I went to the supermarket last week (rather unsteadily) with my husband. I sent him off to find something and then couldn't remember where he was so we both spent ages looking for each other! He certainly wasn't amused but neither was I! It's so frustrating!
OK, here's a new question, in a similar vein. What words can you NOT pronounce? I forget the names of things and can't put sentences together. But I cannot for the life of me pronounce the work "distribute" or "distribution" without carefully thinking it through and sounding it out (sometimes not even then). I'm sure people think I'm starting alzheimers (I'm 60) because of my problems with word retrieval and sentences. And I too can't remember common words and have to point and say "that thing". I'd rather have bad word retrieval than bad pain, though.
Oh Sue, you just made me laugh a little, I know i shouldn't cuz it's really not funny, but i've gotten used to it. I guess my husband has too. I do this Ya know what i'm talking about.. and he says NO I don't... LOL... I have tried to pronounce a word just last nite like 5 times before I got it right. So I know what YOU are talking about!!
Sooo, it took me 2 and half hours to write 2 e-mails! But in the meantime, I poured myself a cup of coffee and put it back in the cabinet on the coffee cup shelf! Took an hour to find it! Lol! What else can you do but laugh about it! The antics!
I ran some errands today ... on the fourth stop, i got into the car and i could not remember how to start the car ... my friend thought i was looking for my car keys ... i had already placed them in the ignition ... i just couldnt remember what to do next
I remember at the end of my career I would always bring two tons of paperwork into meetings because I always forgot something. When my manager would ask me for information on one of my employees I wouldn't remember their name so I would go to my org chart to get the name so I wouldn't forget it or say a different name. Well after the last meeting like that' I was put on warning for not being able to remember the names. So at the end I just put my hands up said I give up. I went out on disability I just can't do this any more. Of course they try to bring me back for half days which I knew was a joke. Because I would have meetings all day long how could I miss one that I was involved in. Of course it didn't work. So here I am still waiting to find a cure and to get off these meds.
I just can't imagine going back to work either after so many years. I would need to start all the way from scratch..hard to even imagine.
And I so hate these long, long sentences that I write now. The rambeling I guess is what I should call it. Terrible!! I am with all of you beleive me.
Group Hug to all of you oooooooooooooooooooooooooo to how many of you that are suffering with this!!
:) Nice to hear someone else say that they have this problem, too. I have been so smart all of my life....and now I struggle with words and things. Sometimes my co-workers give me the strangest look b/c I'm at a loss for words trying to think of the right one right in the middle of a sentence. Also, Bill, when folks say "yeah...must be tough...I have headaches too" or "how's your tooth" it drives me up the wall!! As usual, it's just nice to hear I'm not the only one.
My husband asked me if I got the mail yesterday. I was looking at him and said the mail mmmm. he said you know the mail and made big eyes at me and everyone else in the room laughed. I covered and said I thought YOU did. I had been out and about and couldn't remember if I got it when I drove by or not? My brain just froze up. LOL
I, too have serious speech problems. It is so frustrating. Not being able to find the right word and/or sounding garbled when I do have the right word. I
I am sure some people think I have been drinking when talking to me. Not all the time, but more than enough of the time
Hi kath,
I can totally relate. My writing is terrible now, I often read something I have written the next day and can barely believe that it is my writing. I struggle with finding words when I talk and often I use a word and then there is a delay of 20 seconds or so before I realize my mistake…
Just one of those things I guess. Before the TN I was taking classes in ancient history at a local university for fun. I couldn’t consider doing that now.
On the upside my pain has been better controlled so it is just a serious of trade off’s and I still am trying to find the right balance.
I've had to attempt explaining this to my job (as a grant writer), as in, yes, I've been writing grants for 20 years but now I cannot. My employers find this hard to believe, what they don't know is that I find it hard to believe!!
Yes ...this is such a problem for me now. I used to consider myself rather intelligent and words were my world. I used to write (just for myself) and was able to speak well.
Now....now i sound like an idiot some days. It's so frustrating to be in the middle of a sentence and be unable to pull out the word i know that i know. It was kind of funny at first, but now it's embarrassing and makes me feel ...sad.
My husband understands some...he'll kindly wait for me to try to come up with the word, if i can. If not, he'll ask if i mean this or that or whatever. My brother on the other hand, is a brat about it...i'll get stuck and he'll just say the word and then say stuff like, "jeez your getting retarded in your old age". I know he's joking, but it's hurtful all the same.
And of course there are some times that complete jibberish comes out my mouth. lol Seriously, i'll say a sentence and what comes out my mouth is nothing like what i meant to say. Those are fun too...especially when talking to the boss, eh?
Ah well...what can ya do? (no seriously...what can you do!!?? LOL)