I did make it to church this Sunday, my scarf too! I am getting some mixed results with the tegretol. Just started last Wednesday, a low dose and then I elevate slowly over the next month to 200 mg. a day, maybe 400. Anyway, I am having a few days of subdued pain, the mask of where it all hits still remains but interestingly this cold sensation has decreased some. One day my face was not so cold, but I was still having the right side spasms into my jaw. And bam, I got a full blown hit with a migraine that made me think my head was going to explode, I get the jabs and pokes of pain in intermittment waves. Sometimes it is difficult to chew and my ears feel plugged. There is still a feeling like I have been clubbed on the side of my head and face, right side only. So perhaps the tegretol is starting to quiet this monster, however I have to be watched carefully with blood work for kidney failure and I may get the swelling in the ankles and feet. I already have that from the spinal cord injury I have at T-11, called tethered-cord, not born with this, got this from a cyst that developed at the tip of a pain pump implanted in 95 and it had to go in 99, paralysis of my right foot started, the cyst was compressing my spinal cord.
I have tried it all for chronic pain, I dislike drugs but this is the first step in controlling this type of pain, I just hope I can tolerate the tegretol.
I left my service early after the minister did his sermon and went to the nursery to visit my grandchildren. My 2 year old grandson always greets me with a long welcome, "Grannnny!" I stayed with his group and found out the woman who has been taking care of this group needs the help. At first my grandson would not share me but then he did. The woman who takes care of the 2 year olds is challenged mentally and wow, she yells at these kids. One little boy would not sit for her but he did for me with a will you please and thank you nicely request and came back to sit for me numerous times. I have been asked to volunteer in that group and hope I can keep a commitment. I have worked with babies to 3 years of age so I know what to expect and how they behave. I got lots of hugs when I said good bye so I guess I will be back. It is so hard to want to do something, the gifting of my time with children, and have this thing keep me away. I know we all struggle with this, do we want to hide under a blanket and stay in bed or get out and have more quality in our lives.
With this thing, I sometimes find if I do go out and get away I do not perceive it as badly as it is. Maybe the happiness in challenging yourself with something you enjoy doing gets all those natural pain killers we have working too.
It is blustery in Florida, the wind is 20 to 30 mph. because of that storm, not to cold yet, but the cooler weather is coming, something we all look forward to after a long humid summer. We usually have a few days of the wind blowing and temps down but then it warms nicely to about 70, that is a typical winter day here. There are days of highs only reaching into the 50's but we have that wind, and it is a damp cold. Sooo, all of you who have the snow, sure Florida is great, no complaints here, but we do get some kind of winter, snow is rare.
I love this blog, sharing this with all who suffer and understand truly helps you not feel so alone, it is such a weird condition to describe to friends and family, they just don't get it and you get that feedback, "it's all in your head". It is all in your head, darnit, it is!! Granny