I thought I was on remission (and perhaps on denial) till I had a
seizure the other night, a bout with a heavyweight migraine that knocked
me out and left me bedridden, weak and dizzy. I thought I was ready to
give up my meds cuz I was feeling okay since last September. I don’t want to be popping pills after pills any more. I guess that’s not going to happen. I am dependent on my meds.
I got home from golf
that day and I was feeling okay. At dinner while my husband and I were
having our pizza, I started having a migraine headache ( which I always
have after being out all day). I took a triptan and it usually works
instantly but the pain became worse. I panicked which I usually do when I
feel facial pain. I started hyper ventilating and was having a hard
time breathing. I was sweating bullets and feeling hot and cold at the
same time. I was afraid I might be having pneumonia and meningitis. I
wanted to be rushed to ER but my body says NO. I was feeling cold and
too weak to get up. I preferred to just die in bed. My poor husband was
at my beck
and call. I asked him to turn the air con off cuz I was feeling cold
and to quickly turn it back on cuz I was hot. I asked him to turn the TV
off cuz the sound was giving me a headache. This is Neuralgia. I felt
the facial nerve pains once again shooting from the gum of my teeth to
the bones of my cheeks, burning. I hung on to my pain not wanting to
move. Movement makes my pain even worse. My husband then laid down next
to me and started caressing my forehead and I felt relaxed. But when he
had fallen asleep, I persevered through my pain alone. The whole night
was a nightmare and I endured it. The following morning, I felt weak,
dizzy and wasted. I stayed in bed and forced myself to eat to have
strength. I took my lyrica as always hoping to feel better. On the third
day, I could walk around the house but my legs felt wobbly and lame.
Now and ever, it’s the anticipation of the pain that leaves me helpless
and scared. There is nothing you can do when the pain attacks you. You
just have to endure it and hope to live through it. I did it this time
and knowing that it will come again, the thought of it is already
killing me.
Hi Veronica,
I’m so sorry you had another attack. Migraines can trigger mine easily. Both my neuro and surgeon said to keep those under control. I hope this will soon pass. It is very normal to dread the next bad attack. I’ve never been pain free but I always dreaded the big ones coming on. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.
Liz
oh my am so sorry i know what you going threw them pills help so much
i hate taking pills because i like drink my beer but, if thats what it takes to get will
i guess i just take them pills everyday!!! just to feel better god bless you girl!!
am so sorry i love you am here for you !! sunflower
“Now and ever, it’s the anticipation of the pain that leaves me helpless
and scared.”
Oh yes, Veronica, the anticipation…the ANTICIPATION!
“I persevered through my pain alone.”
No, Veronica, you are not alone! I have no answers, though I assure you that you are not alone.
With love and great respect, bob
So sorry for your pain! I have lived this nightmare all too often. Please remember that you are not alone! This community of friends knows exactly what you are going through. The anticipation is the part that never goes away!