Five months have passed very quickly. Right around the fourth month marker, the pain was back. I didn’t want to believe it was happening again. Fortunately, the pain did not reach the frequency or severity of my pre-MVD days. Today, as I reflect back on the past five months, I am going to say with a smile that the surgery was successful. What I’ve learned, is nothing new. Every body heals differently, in their own way, on their own time.
Today, while I was at work and dealing with a difficult situation, I kept thinking , this circumstance is getting on my last nerve. Nevertherless it required patience, perserverence, attentiveness, clear expectations and time to work it out. Just when I thought it had reached and an impasse, a solution arrived.
Interestingly, I feel the same way about my recovery from MVD surgery. I’ve learned patience.( No easy task,while I have the patience of Job for others. I have a very short fuse with my progress.) I learned perserverence. ( I feel a little like MLK, I made it to the mountaintop and refused to start over.)
In life the road to most any destination is not a straight shot.The comeback road is a crooked mile. Unfortunately, I had to accept that with TN. the expectations are never clear. As I’ve said many times, recovery is a little like going to the optometrist. As he works to perfect the prescription, he repeatedly asks, as he vascillates between lenses, "Is that better ( view 1) or is that better (veiw 2)? I’ve been asking myself the same question over and over for the last month. I’ve comeback!
While, I knew it was better, I wasn’t certain it would get better. Today, I am certain the pain is much better. It is a better view. I am going forward with my life and TN is not crippling me. That was my goal prior to the surgery. That was my expectation during my recovery. That is my reality today. I am med free and paine free once again. Today I am celebrating: Just for today TN is not getting on my last nerve. Yippee! The ON has substantially settled down. To each of you have been on this journey with me, thank you for your support and prayers. I wouldn’t have made it with out. In the words of Jackie Gleason, How sweet it is! To Dr. J,and Dr. Ray, thank you !thank you! thank you!!. To nurse Ann… you earned your wings!
With gratitude and much love,
May peace, tenderness, healing comfort surround you,
Aleshia