I'm just so very tired

Hello to all,

I'm sitting here at home and feeling sorry for myself. I don't want to have another "pity party", but I'm just so very tired of all of this. The pain never ends. All of the medications...I'm like a walking pharmacy. I'm in Southern California and the temperature is in the low 90's. Another long hot summer, filled with pain.

I feel like all I ever do is whine. I logged on here because I know those of you here that fight with this monster called, "TN", know how truly terrible it is.

I find myself sitting at this keyboard with tears streaming down my face. It has been 2 years! I am just so very tired. I don't really even have anything else to say. I wake up each morning and don't know how I will be able to make it through another day. But I do......then it's the same thing the next day. It's funny, the pain doesn't wake me up during the night, but each morning, it's there again and the cycle just keeps repeating itself.

I will say a prayer for all of us to have the strength to get through another day. Take care.


(((( Janice )))),

One day at a time my friend, sometimes it feels more like one minute at a time.
It has been the most difficult test of my patience, strength, courage and will…I’m sure yours as well…
Thinking of you and hoping you get some lengthy relief from the pain.
Mimi xx

Yeah, I am a whiner too! I try not to be. Maybe don’t whine too much. My wife doesn’t like for me to! I am going on 4 1/2 years of atypical left side pain. I take ambien at night for sleep. It’s hard having this. The quality of my life has been down, down, down…just like my neurosurgeon said to expect. At least I had enough years in to retire. I am 61 and turn 62 in 5 months so I will have SS income. Applying for disability but no success yet. I cannot work, impossible! I have a sister named Janis. We have to make it to the end. There is a better place to go where there is no pain or suffering.

As long as you don’t mind me whining I don’t mind anyone else whining! :slight_smile:
I tried “whining” to my husband tonight which then turned into yet another fight! I’m so worried about my marriage and its all because of this monster!!! I have only this monster in my life for 3 1/2 months! I have no idea how you all have dealt with this for so long!!!