I feel so silly. None of us want pain ANY day. But I am getting married in 3-4ish days (depending on how you count... Sunday, it is Wed now) and I am having such pain. I really don't want to have pain on my wedding day. I don't want to have to take a painkiller. I want to be ALL there mentally and NOT in pain at the same time. I know it is a silly wish in the grand scheme of Trigeminal Neuralgia. But I feel like it is a really important emotional day in my lifetime. I just love my MBHiker so much, and I want to be able to look into his eyes fully cognitive of the words I am saying and the feelings in my heart. It makes me sad that it might not be possible. Especially given how much pain I have been in so far this week.
I guess I must be stressed and that must be contributing to my TN pain. Although, it has been flaring up and giving me problems since Sept, so who knows. But to be honest, I don't feel stressed about the wedding. We are having it at MBHiker's parents house, and it is just our immediate family and a Justice of the Peace. We basically planned all the food and everything 3 days ago. It is so relaxed I don't know how I can be stressed about it? All I have been feeling (other than frustration at pain) is really happy, excited, but also I have this feeling of overall calm and like all is right - sort of like everything is in its place. It is the same way I felt like 10 min after getting engaged - really peaceful.
Anyhow, that TN rant took a weird turn. Hoping for the best!
No, you’re not being silly…
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that your special day will be all that you want and more!!
TN has a mind of its own…lets hope your pain magically disappears on Sunday!! ( well sooner would be nice too!) ; )
All the best of wishes LGHiker!! Wishing you a lifetime of love, laughter and happiness together!
(( hugs )) Mimi xx
I can completely relate to your stress. My TN pain started about a month before I got married. I not only had the stress of planning a wedding, but also I had the stress of weather or not the TN pain would affect our wedding day. I think that stressed me out more than the wedding itself. I know that a huge miracle happened the day of my wedding and I had no TN pain. I will pray that God does the same for your wedding and that you can feel a little relief. Best of luck to you on your wedding day!
Thank you both for the sweet well wishes! I have an update. I was in the ER last night and they gave me an IV of Dilantin which really helped with the TN pain. Under the TN pain was nose pain giving me twinges of pain to my ear, and pain on top/back of my head. Apparently I also have a sinus infection. The TN pain was so bad I didn't notice the sinus infection pain. This is all great news. I can go on an antibiotic for the sinus infection, which should have me feeling better in 48 hours (by wedding time), and the dilantin really knocked my TN pain down on it's back! YAY!