Ugh, I am just an emotional mess these days!!! I haven't had any "big attacks" since last Monday (which was 5 hours LONG)...so just over a week, but I have pain and shocks "mini attacks" on a daily basis. My body is just physically wore out! I can't tell you the last time I had a REAL meal! I only have shakes and smoothies and anything I can swallow down with absolutely NO chewing!
The last two days I constantly feel like crying. I have already had a breakdown today because I keep finding mistakes at work. I just feel like I can't do anything right anymore!!! I hate my medication!!!!
I so no how your feeling I’m living on cuppa soups and jelly I have permanent hangover on carbamazepine so I’m sending you a (((hug))) just to say your not alone
I’ve found quite a few mistakes of my own today at work, and I am feeling quite the same. It scares me that becoming absent minded is a given as I continue to battle this problem and increase meds and such. The mistake that I found was a $1000 mistake with one of our previous, very large, customers that we are currently trying to “win back” 100% of their business. Granted we’ll eat the $$, and it’s a small amount in the grand scheme of things here, but I am still quite a perfectonist so I have a hard time “letting it go”. The biggest thing is that I’m afraid that this disorder could mean that I will not be able to even do this job in the future. I try my best not to sweat the future until it gets here…but today I’m hungover from about 5 days or so of taking pain medicine and not sure if the latest “new med” is also contributing to how sluggish and confused I feel today. I’m just tired. I feel like I’m on a roller coaster with this thing, and quite honestly, I want off. Tomorrow is a new day…and today is just “one of those days.” It does get better, then it gets different, then it gets worse, then it gets better. sigh Just breath…and keep it moving. That’s what I tell myself anyways. Growth of any sort is painful I suppose. Struggles such as these “build character.” ***hugs***I hope we both feel better soon.