For more than a decade, I have had multiple, daily assaults of sharp stabbing debilitating pain of TN. Episodes tend to last about 10 to 20 minutes. I also have rare but frightening episodes of extreme pain zaps that hit me as a flash but completely disorient me as if someone hit me with a cattle prod. The right half of my scalp burns constantly, making it difficult to brush my hair. Is it really too much to ask for a doctor to have some compassion and understanding of the agony we live with on a daily basis? My most recent doctor dismissed me as an uncooperative patient because the anti-depressant she prescribed just intensified suicidal thoughts. She told me it was highly unlikely that an anti-depressant would cause me to have suicidal thoughts. Really? Ever seen a TV commercial for anti-depressants?
I need some hope that this Hell isn't just going to increase. I am already a hermit. I have such difficulty navigating through life dealing with unpredictable volleys of white-hot pain. No one could understand this unless they've experienced it. I am angry because this hideous disease has stolen so much from me. If this is what I'm doomed to live with, I don't see the point