Well, as much as I hate to admit it, I have Trigeminal Neuralgia and I can't blame it on my teeth anymore. It's time to quit denying what the doctor's have been telling me and thinking it will just go away on it's own. I was lucky enough to have some remission time and really enjoyed it. I was even able to get some of the dental work done without major incidents. Until two weeks ago when I got my last root canal. Oh, that dentist got me good and I knew it when it happened. We both felt when he hit that nerve. About came out of the chair. Ended up crying most of the way home from the pain. And so it began again. Those ice pick pains were back, my jaw was screaming and my face felt like it was on fire. Still having trouble eating. But now we've picked up something new this time...now I get problems with my right eye. It's all swollen and starting to droop...lovely. So I went to a new neurologist today, and he started me back on Tegretol. Hey, maybe I can sleep a little at night now. And so the gambit of tests begin.
What I hate more than anything is the look in my mother's eyes when I try to explain how bad I'm hurting and why I keep cancelling on her. I know she thinks I'm making this up or exaggerating how bad the pain is. Of course you can't see the pain, so I'm just a hypochondriac to her. Except now it's affecting my eye, so she's trying to understand. That's the hard part in all of this...trying to make more people aware of this. Sometimes I just want to break down and cry, but at the same time even that hurts so I just try not to.
I know I'm rambling, but I've been home-bound for almost a year now and trying to take care of my 15 year old disabled son. He has Down Syndrome and Autism and he's quite a challenge. He has a limited vocabulary and it's very difficult to talk to him. I just don't have a lot of places to vent or people who understand, so I guess I'm going to treat this like some sort of therapy for myself. At least I know most of you understand what I'm going through.
Well, I guess that's all for today...thanks for listening :D