Although I missed out on the point of of story about the doctor due to the edit...what you said about the boy dancing really warmed my heart. That is amazing! How strong must he have been to be able to do that! It makes me feel kind of silly for letting this take over my life the way it has. Maybe i needed that [= The fact that you've dealt with it for this long really gives me hope too! You must be a VERY strong person yourself. You have been through sooo much! I really admire your strength. I need to be more like that. This has made me feel sooo weak and useless. But thats only because I'm letting it. Thank you for sharing your story with me...it means more than you could imagine!
Will Newton said:
Hey Bri,
I hope you're all right and not too worried. Just to put a few things in perspective, I'm your age, I was 22 on wednesday, and I've had ATN since I was 17. I may have some other neurological problems too, but I definitely don't have MS.Also, as I'm not the sort of guy that complains about problems, I only ever go to the doctor whenever I have a list of about 10 problems! To boot, I have had cancer before and so whenever I mention something, a bump, a pain, of which I have a lot (I'm quite active, daring and don't take much care of myself so I'm often getting scraped and bruised etc), my mum will pretty much freak out! For this reason she makes me promise to mention every little thing to the doctor (which is fair, after all, I did have cancer!). I used to feel quite embarrassed mentioning so many things to the doctor, as if I were some sort of hypochondriac and have often been told by the GP "you only have a 10 minute slot", but I've come to realise most of them are out there to help, as much as earn a living. They want to be there for us and help us through a situation. On top of this, being honest can really help a situation, giving all the information can turn one serious misdiagnosis to quite a normal problem. I once mustered up the courage to say that I'd even (Edited by moderator)and immediately the doctor had a cheeky smile and lost the worry in his look and said "you'll be fine by the end of the day!", God knows what he thought my symptoms were from!!
I hope you're all right and that the worry's not too much. However bad things get there's always hope and things do get better. Not to mention I've learnt to appreciate every second where I'm not in pain or being looked after by friends that care! One of the most emotional moments in my life was seeing a kid from my school, who'd been wheelchairbound for as long as I could remember with MS, get wheeled onto a club dance floor on the last day of school. I felt a little sorry for him, but you couldn't believe what went through my head when the guy got up and danced! I'd never seen him stand up before, let alone dance and I'm pretty sure he's walking around quite freely now. What a night!
Love, Will