Thank you all very much for your answers.
They all feel right and are very wellcome.
I’m glad that I am not the only one who read/heard these term used on TN.
Thing is, the term was used by an neurologist on tv (!), he said :”… Clusterheadaches are the most worst pain there is and that’s why it’s often called ‘Suicide headache/pain’. …”
As an TN type one sufferer I felt as if my pain, which is never spoken about on (dutch) tv, was suddenly called less painfull or something. I think mainly because I always read and heard that TN was the most painfull and therefore called SD, and I must say it felt like that was the truth.
When I first was hit by TN, the pain was so very intens, I instantly wanted to die just to get away from the pain. They have to put me on heavy dose of morfine to kill the pain instead of me.
Very stupid, I know, but I also felt like again something was taken away from me (as TN did with allmost most of my life).
Like ‘let this awfull pain at least being called the worst’ or something, was taken away .
Now I have something less to use by talking to others explaining how bad the pain is (like Kari says, you”re so right, thank you for saying it like that. I also like the Veyron!).
And the people I used the term SD to to explain TN, and saw that tv show, must now think I’m a lyer… Or a dramaqueen.
I want to appoligize to anyone with clusterheadaches (crashgirl and others) or any other kind of suffering from heavy duty pains. I don’t want to say anything about or judge you’re pain. Please forgive me if it looks that way.
This is just me, a tiny TN sufferer in a big world full of people who don’t understand how painfull TN is, and I sometimes feel even smaller than before by something someone (like this man on tv) is saying….
Less (or better: no) pain for everyone,
Ellis.