Broke down, caved in

I would try all other meds before mvd. I had mvd and now have complications from it and still have atypical pain.

Thanks Bella, Amy & Thad,
Happy to hear of your success with pain management and physio Amy! That’s awesome!
15 injections? Where? And of what?

Thad,
I’m sorry to hear your mvd caused you complications, and that you still have pain! That’s very discouraging. Do you mind sharing your story? Is your pain manageable?
My decision to have mvd surgery has not been made lightly . …and I’m going in knowing this is not a cure and there are no guarantees. Of course I’m hopeful that I can get off all meds for as long as possible and be pain free. I will be happy with one low dose med that controls my TN pain so that I may get back to life again.

(( hugs )) Mimi

Mimi, holding you in my arms to comfort you, to hopefully take some of your pain away, to share in your pain as a means of allowing some of it to leave you. Gladly will I do this for you, because I know what you are going through. I pray this will help you. Wish I was there. I’m no mother Teressa, or virgin Mary, but God is full of love and we all have that to share. Hoping you are able to rest. Sincerely, Laurel

((( laurel )))

Your post made me cry. Thank you for your kindness and love.

Am resting, and trying very hard to deal with the emotional side effects…my mind at one moment is angry, so angry…my body is exhausted from the constant pain. I use my “old tricks” listening to classical music or favourite pop songs etc, write in my journal, remind myself of all that is good in the world, be grateful…and then I’m angry again.
In comes the sadness…frustration…then the anger.
Then I pick myself up again and am positive, try to push through, then I’m disappointed with myself, then the sadness and anger, I know better…and the cycle continues…

Today the sun is shining, birds are singing. No wind. I took my little dog Roxy out for a very short walk up and down my street…I’m exhausted. The pain is increasing BUT I accomplished something.

I will be ok, this is just a short “pause” …better days are coming, I know it.
So grateful for all you lovely people who really have made a difference in my life, during I would say my darkest days, you are here, always here to support.
Thank you,

Mimi xx

Hi Mimi

I’m not as critical as you at the moment but can relate to those cascading emotions. So happy for you that you got for a bit of a walk with your little dog.
Are you in Calgary? I lived there for almost six years.I remember those good winter days gratefully. Hope you have many more. Spring is coming.
The moss is in its prime out here on the coast so sending you some of that good green healing energy.
XoKaren

Just a thought if you are looking for some new music and haven’t heard of Dustin O’Halloran. Contemporary piano that is about the most calming music I listen to.
B