I am on day 4 of my flare up. Have TN 1 and 2 is not only horrible for me, but for those who have to witness my pain… Its hard enough for me to act normal when am enduring the constant throbbing pain in my face so unconsciously I shield it… But in the mist of that having to brace myself in horror bc something feels like its shooting lighting bolts through my face on top of the throbbing…Sounds funny, but I can deal with that… But to watch My Dad,who has been protector my entire life, walk out the room after seeing me drop to floor and punch a hole in the wall bc he stop his "lil girl’s"pain… I would rather take away his pain in his n on his face than my pain. When a man who has raised n provided for 4 daughters n a wife for over 45yrs cant help his lil Tomboy, u cant tell that it takes something from him!!
My Dad came to help me with my new apt several years ago….he painted my ceilings for me, something I can no longer do….I too was his tomboy….I was always the one who worked along side of him…..I will never forget I was in the mist of a pain attack and laying in my bed when he decided to wash my window by my bed….he was outside and I looked up and he was crying looking at me…..he felt helpless….he was scared and I told him that it was ok to feel that way because I did as well….
Now 5 years later she smiles when I walk into the room knowing the journey I have been on….he is proud that I kept searching for answers and though my life is not "normal" I can keep my pain under control….
I have tried many therapies but the one that has worked the most for me has been myokinesthetic and advanced massage treatment….I am diagnosed with TMJ, Eagle Syndrome and atypical facial pain. I will write a blog of my adventure in pain and hopefully it will give people some insight into finding a way through this pain….
Ann